friends are friends forever?

My mom once told me that friendship is always a season. The older I get, the more I believe her. I am extremely relational; once I meet someone who I feel deserves my friendship, I am willing to carry it. Friendship is a two way street most of the time. If one of you is a little extra needy for a while, that is totally allowed, a good mate should always be there for someone they care about. My question is, what happens when one or both parties just get lazy? Is there really any other excuse for two good friends to just stop talking. Or maybe it is because one of the parties holds a grudge. Honesty, without it, was there any 'real' friendship in the first place.

I guess it is pretty clear that I am having some friend issues. It seems I am losing friends left right and centre! Most of them are because I have just gotten lazy. I have two very good friends that I have actually tried, as much as a person should, to keep in contact with. It is almost painful to think that perhaps they have gotten bored with me. I know I am not a fully healed woman, so it may be my issues talking...but still, what is their excuse? It is just a little sad, that is all. I keep wondering what some of my old friends must have felt when I decided it was not worth my time. It must have hurt them like crazy. Freedom is a great thing, until you realize other people have it too. (it is still great!)

Kansas City was pretty good. It was very similar to TACF in annointing...

The road trip was exausting, it was MUCH longer than mapquest said it would be! It was 20hrs there and 24hrs home. We kept getting held up in traffic going home. Beck and I both got VERY sick on the way down, and it lasted until...well..I am still getting over it!

I moved home, I am not sure I have told many people. I am sick of all the moving I do, but this was a final decision. I am commited to being here for six months, then I am moving to North Carolina. That is one thing I learned in the states...I truely love it there. I definatly want to live there for a while.

I have nothing else to say.

oh weary heart

Well, I am home now. I arrived this afternoon, after a 24 hour straight drive. It was pretty sick, I felt like I was in a moving vehicle for hours after the return.

I will post about my trip in a few days. This post is to acknowledge Will.

I wish I could say that I came home to the very sad news that a great friend of mine had passed away...but instead I have to say...an old friend passed away.

Will was a great guy. I really wish I got to know him better, and somehow, spent more time with him. I was good friends with his sisters a while back, and I really admired his leadership. I never even knew he was sick. I don't understand why God takes people away. Will had dreams...he loved God, and was just an all around amazing person. I think most people would agree in me saying 'it was not his time'. But it was. I am so confused. God was the only thing in control of it...and He decided it was time. Why?

Will will be missed and remembered by many. I am left with the thought of how this would feel if I knew him just a little bit better. One of my greatest friends knew him really well (I am pretty sure they were best friends). I wonder how he feels? I wish I could bring Will back, but it is abundantly clear to the world that I can't. I have cried about it, more for the pain my really close friends are going through.

Will, I wish I took the time to know you better.
Friends, I wish I could relate to/ease your pain.
God, I don't understand...he didn't want to die.

I don't know what to write any more.

i'm a princess

Okay everyone. I took the test. And you all should too!! I think it is just too accurate to ignore. Guys, you could learn a lot about yourselves! This is a golden opportunity!



You Are Cinderella!

Dignified and hard working. With a gentle and soft-spoken manner you have something many people don't. Patience. Even through the moments of heartbreak you're still able to hold onto all of your hopes and dreams. Bide your time; you're dream will come true.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

also...check this out. I laughed...I thought it was funny. Then I realized...how sad it was I took the test in the first place...tear.

oh so emo

Who should your boyfriend be like?

and the last one...

M&M



Your M&Ms! Your random, fun, and spontaneous. Everyone loves you one way or another- peanut, plain, crunchy, peanutbutter. You are a positive person and don't worry about your losses much.

Well, I think it may be true. True enough anyhow. Okay...I am off to sleep. That rave last night really drained me straight out and away!

I will be gone for a week...however, we shall converse lay-ta. I definatly have some interesting stories for y'all.

peace

the many wonders of me

listen to this for a wonderful musical experience...~...~...

In other news, I am happy. I am at home right now. On saturday I will be on my way to Kansas City. I am pretty damn excited. I will be going to the IHOP with Beck. She wants to go to school there potentially, and so she is checking it out. I am just a tag along :)

I have said it before, and I will say it again, blogging on a mac is NO GOOD! There are NO options available for me to better my work at all. What you see before you now is RAW talent. Yep. No spell check, no bold italic or insert link option. I am just a genius.

Okay, I am going to bed now, I know this was not long...but deal with it.

AND EAT SOME COOKIES FOR GOODNESS SAKES!

music good for you

Okay, I am SO not sure how this works...but...I just thought I would try it out. If it does not work, I am SO deleting it! Yep. Not even a question about it. Except for 'will it work?". Alright. It is Copelands Music Video...Walking Downtown. They are one of my fav bands! Yep. True talent.

Video code provided by Music Video Codes

I went to Canadas Wonderland today. I laughed on one of the rides because I realized how boring it was. I have this risk adventure side of me...and it is SO not being fufilled. I am SO going skydiving once I lose like a million pounds. Yep. I the time will come.

I am going home for mothers day. I adore my precious mother. I am going to let her know that tomorrow. I feel really bad, because truth be told, I totally forgot fathers day. I have no good excuse either. I just flat out forgot it. I remembered his birthday, but a lousy phone call is all I could muster up to give.

got to go...sianara.

peace to grandma jones

Opening word...can't think of one. It is usually something like: well..., or So, but today, i just decided to jump right in.

I have spent today at home alone. Yes. At home, alone. Not totally alone. Jesus was there, still is in fact. Neil was there too...he also is still here. Lillee too. Cute. I have been on the computer ALL day, and I feel quite trekkyish. Being on the computer takes my mind off things, things that I want really badly, but just can't seem to have. Money for example.

I did this idiot test, and was quite distraught when it came to the results. I need to become less idiotish. Try taking it here.

I am 39% Idiot.

I ain't too bright. But all those other idiots annoy the hell out of me. I may not be the brightest bulb in the bunch, but at least I know my limits.

Take the
Idiot Test
@ FualiDotCom

I figure most people who have any sort of sense of humor will get a lower score. So I am okay with my results. I still am working on my card for the mother that I love...your mom...nope. I was also working on my Xanga...I found some rocking music. I switched it from Seasame street, I had complaints...but now it is better. I hope to find something even more incrediable soon. I wonder why you can't have music on a blog. I shall attempt figuring that out soon.

I think I should go spend time with God. Kay...Aloha

i'm link crazy..

Oh friends,

I must share a story that caused me to weep. I created an excellent post in the eve of yesterday...and it deleted. Sick. I cried and cried like a baby. It is okay though, this one shall redeem it.

Yesterday was an extremely emotional day for me, I cried a lot. I think it was good though. I felt like a build up of stress from the past couple months just dropped on me. Well, that does not sounds so fun, but it was all released through a river of vasser a la myself.

My parents just bought a new and improved vehicle. I think that is it...I am not sure though. It has an automatic start thingy...which is RIDICULOUS! My mother is very happy with it. I hate when people get excited because something saves them like 20 seconds of their life. I mean, how much effort does it really take to start a car...pathetic. Oh well, I love her just the same.

I am thinking of the beach. I am missing home. I miss my dog, and my bed! I kind of miss Subaway...SUE ME!

Remember when that was a phrase...sue me. Another piece of pathetic for you. You da bomb! I mean, it doesn't even make sense. How about...you da defective bomb. Would that have been considered a mad dis yo?! I am just laying it out there...you can feel free to pick it up or leave it there.

Seasons pass to Wonderland. SO pick one up. May 9th the price will sky rocket up to almost 100 buckaroos. They are SO cheep right now. Just do it!

I have noticed a significant decrease in risk latley. I think I thrive off of excitment. When I do nothing exciting for a number of days I lose flare. Perhaps that has something to do with my prophetic. It is always risky, and the second after...or even during...something prophetic...something in me sparks. I love it. So yeah, that is just a thought. I have one hand purple and the other green.

Who do I miss? Lots of people. Why? Just cause! I wonder as I wander.

I know pudd has this link, but it is SO great, I just can't resist. This one is pretty great too.

Bye

a bad day

Sometimes I just feel like this...

but I guess it is okay, cuz it makes other people laugh...

sigh...